wonât go to the bar to order. He wonders why she bothers asking him questions that she doesnât want answered.
She lifts her arm and waves it at the waitress. âHi! Hi! Over here!â
âWhat can I get you?â
âOh, uhm . . . Sam, what are you drinking?â
âJust beer.â
Grace looks up and around the bar, clicking her tongue, just so everyone knows sheâs thinking.
âIâll have a double vodka and soda?â
âAny type of vodka?â asks the waitress.
âThe cheapest,â she says and smiles.
âWow, that big city has made you so sophisticated.â Samâs never forgiven that she moved to Chicago to study philosophy and literature. He knows the move was motivated by a sense that she was close to some discovery about herself. It hasnât come.
âFuck you. How are you? Whatâs new? Tell me stuff!â
âIâm good. Things are, you know, the same really. Schoolâs going goodââ
âI donât understand how you can do science in university. Isnât it, like, so hard?â
âYeah, kind of. Itâs easy for me, though, so I like it. And Guelph is good, you know, itâs Guelph, but the boys are good.â
âReally? How are they? Howâs Booty?â
Booty has been Samâs best friend forever. No one quite knows why he is called Booty, has been since middle school, and thereâs no changing it now.
âFailing. Drunk a lot. The same.â
âThat warms my heart. And howâs Lily?â
Hearing her name, Sam freezes.
âSheâs good, weâre good. Weâre, um . . . talking about maybe going to Europe this summer.â
âReally?â Grace smiles, trying to look happy. âSo you and Lily are totally in love, huh?â
âAh, well, I donât know. We donât really talk about that stuff, so . . .â
âBut you love her.â
Sam might love Lily. He thinks. Sometimes.
âYeah, I mean weâve been together for . . . ever, so . . .â
Before Sam has to continue, the waitress brings Grace her drink. Samâs relieved. He hates talking about Lily with Grace. As the waitress walks away, he notices that sheâs not half bad. If Grace wasnât with him, heâd take a longer look.
Grace grabs her drink in both hands, moving it from the table to her lips without pause.
âOh, thank God, Iâve had such a day,â she says.
âWhat happened?â
âOh, nothing really. Luke and I have just been fighting lately. Heâs driving me fucking nuts.â
Sam tries his hardest to act concerned. He knows theyâd gotten serious quickly, as is often the case with Grace. She possesses an uncanny ability to commit to those who donât want to commit to her, never fully understanding that it isnât meant to be a one-sided bargain.
âWhatâs going on?â
âItâs just, like . . . I donât know, weâre really different. Heâs so, heâs one of those people who seems really interesting at first, because heâs in a band and everything. I thought we had so much in common, and on the surface, we do but itâs not the stuff that matters. Like, I donât think he understands me. Not really. I donât know. You met him that one time when you came to visit me. At his show, right? Whatâd you think?â
Sam thought he was a fucking idiot.
âHe was cool.â
âYeah, he is cool,â says Grace.
âDo you like his band?â Sam asks.
âHonestly?â
âYes, honestly. Between us.â
âI hate them!â
They laugh so loudly that the couple next to them stares. Grace notices and starts laughing louder. They grin at each other like children whoâve agreed on something forbidden.
âBut maybe I hate them because Iâm not, like, really cool, in the way