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don't."
    Yes! That’s what I want ed . I want ed to know that he’s out of control, and that he’s going to remember this forever . Looking him straight in the eye , I smile d as I said , "I want you to."
    I could actually see his internal struggle, and I wanted to make damn sure he didn't stop.   Taking my hand out from under his shirt, I used both of my hands to open his jeans before sliding one hand into his boxers.  I ga ve a little gasp when I fe lt how big he was , how hot he was in my hand.  "Oh, angel…"  With a growl, he captured my mouth again as I rub bed against him. 
    The rocking of the bed got faster, and I knew he was about to reach his end.  Our kiss became harder and firmer , even more passionate .  Eve rything wa s wilder as I rub bed my hand over him faster and faster.  Pulli ng back from my mouth, he buried his face against my neck . "Oh god Delilah… angel… I'm going to come !" I rubbed my thumb over the tip again and again as I gasped for air and the bed shook underneath me.  "I love you Spencer.  Let yourself go."
    Letting out a hoarse cry, he erup ted into my han d, and m y bod y tingled all over as he did . I love d the feeling of his breath on my neck, love d being wrapped all around him, love d having my hand in his pants , and I love d the hot and wet feeling of his release on my fingers.  I did that to him.  I made him fee l all those things, and it felt amazing to me .  When he finished, he kissed my neck and then my mouth again before rolling off of me to lie on his back.
    Pulling my hand from his pants, I reach ed my arm over to his nightstand to grab some tissues so that I could clean up.  After my hands were dry, I thre w the tissues in the trash , and then turn ed back to Spencer.  I could totally tell that he wa s struggling, so in stead of making it weird, I took his hand in mine, holding it like we used to when we were younger.  Giving him a kiss on the cheek, I put my head on his chest.  "Thank you for helping me Spence.  It doesn’t have to get weird now, I promise.  I would like to stay and hold your hand for a bit though, if that's okay."
    Lean ing his head down, he gave the top of my head a kiss .  " You know I'll always hold your hand Delilah.  I just need a few minutes to go get changed though.  I'll be back, okay?"
     

Chapter Three: Spencer
     
    I'm pretty sure that I lost my mind when I let Delilah talk me into being her first kiss.  No matter what I do, I'll never be able to take that back.  Just before my tongue slid into her mouth, I'd hoped that we would have no chemistry, that all my sudden desires for her could be wiped away with one hideously bad kiss.
    Unfortunately, that's not what happened at all.  Sure, there was a minute of awkwardness, but once she found her rhythm, she had it down.  Within five minutes of beginning to kiss, we were perfectly in time with one another .  What I just shared with Delilah was easily the best kiss of my life. 
    Not good. 
    Not good at all .
    And fuck it all if I didn't let it get so much further than just kissing!  I haven’t dry humped a girl since I was in ninth grade, but with Delilah, I couldn't help myself .  I wanted her so fucking bad that I thought I was going to explode.  I knew I was out of control , and I knew I needed to calm down.  I tried, I swear I did. 
    When she opened my jeans and put her hand down my pants, I thought my heart was going to explode out of my chest.  By that point , reminding myself that she’s still only sixteen wasn't working anymore. I feel like shit, but it was a conscious decision on my part to quit trying to stop.  I wanted to be touched by her so badly that I thought I'd go crazy with it, and I think when I came into her hand, I actually did go a little crazy.  Nothing ever felt so good or so intense. The only saving grace in all of this is that we didn't go any farther.  
    After getting my shit together in the bathroom, I headed back into my