head.
âIsnât it horrid?â
I turned to find Sarah beside me.
âAnd itâs Saturday too!â she added disgustedly.
So it was. The days had all seemed the same since I arrived. Matthew had offered me one of my âfree eveningsâ the other day, but I had no plans, and since we were at an interesting point in the book, I hadnât bothered to take it. However, the thought of working on a Saturday night was not very pleasant, even if I had nothing better to do. I could at least go down to Chapelcombe to the cinema.
âAnd,â Sarah was continuing, âI go back to school on Wednesday. Next year, when Iâm nine, Daddy says Iâll probably board.â
I must have looked surprised, because she added naively, âI get in his way rather.â
My heart contracted, âIâm sure you donât â he hardly ever sees you!â
âI think itâs because I remind him of Mummy,â she went on, in her old-fashioned little voice. âNot that I really look like her â Mummyâs very beautiful â at least, I think she is â but I suppose just because Iâm here it makes him think of her, and he doesnât like that.â
âDo you miss her, Sarah?â We were still standing at the window, and I put my arm round the thin little shoulders and pulled her against me.
âNot really. I didnât see her much, either. She was always working or at parties.â
âWorking?â
âYes, she writes, like Daddy, but on a newspaper. Tammy says sheâs very clever.â
My heart ached for the child, rejected by both her parents.
As though she knew what I was thinking, she looked up at me with a smile, âIâm not lonely, though. I have Tammy â she was Mummyâs nanny once â did I tell you? â and Uncle Mike is much more fun than Daddy! Daddyâs always so solemn â he never laughs.â
âPerhaps he misses your mummy too.â I hadnât thought of that before.
âYes, I suppose he does. But they always used to shout at each other when she was here, so ...â she lifted her shoulders in an almost foreign little shrug.
I thought gratefully of my own happy family, and half-changed the subject. âYou say sheâs beautiful â what does she look like?â
âWould you like to see her picture?â
âYes â yes, I would.â
âCome upstairs, then.â She tugged at my hand and I turned readily from the depressing view and went with her up the stairs and into her bedroom. It was next door to mine and roughly the same shape, decorated with a wallpaper covered in teddy bears and rabbits.
âItâs a bit babyish,â Sarah apologized matter-of-factly, âbut I quite like it really.â It was uncanny how often she answered a thought in my mind.
She knelt on the floor before a little roll-top desk and opened one of its drawers, from which she took a photograph album. She laid it on the rug in front of the gas fire. âLetâs be cosy!â she said, âCould you light it?â
I knelt beside her on the rug, and the cheerful glow spread over us. Sarah rolled onto her stomach and opened the album at the first page. On it was pasted, somewhat crookedly, a blurred snap of a young woman in a long skirt, holding a baby. My heart sank. If this was to be the quality of the photographs, I would be no nearer knowing anything about Mrs Haig. There was a preponderance of glue, which shone dully all round the snap and even in a few spots on the print itself.
âThatâs Mummy and me, but you canât see it very well.â Sarah turned over. âThere!â she said triumphantly. This page was certainly more promising. There was a photo of Matthew standing with his arm round a girl. They were both laughing, and I was so surprised at this revelation of him looking young and happy, that it was a moment before my eyes passed to the