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the lotion we use on your hair, so we see the curls.”
    Grace went into the bathroom she shared with her daughter and stared at herself in the mirror. A woman she barely recognized stared back. Her eyes were dark, intense, her face looked hunted. She slicked on gloss, smacked her lips together, recurled her eyelashes and fringed on mascara, her mind blank, back on Katie’s question.
    Does Daddy like you?
    She found the hair conditioner and went back into the bedroom.
    Katie lay sprawled on her stomach, next to the open suitcase, shorts and a ruffled top a pale pink against her glowing skin. “How am I getting home?”
    Grace sat next to her and worked a dollop of conditioner into her hair. “I’m glad you got dressed. That’s good. You’ll fly with Daddy and then stay in his house.”
    Katie yanked up her head in surprise and Grace gently tipped it forward again. “He has a house?”
    “Daddy bought a place almost right next to ours, so you’ll spend Monday night there, and then I’ll pick you up after school Tuesday.”
    “He lives in San Diego in Point Loma?” Her voice was astonished.
    “Not too far away. He bought it when he found out about you. He wants very much to get to know you and be a real daddy.”
    Katie sucked in a breath, her head still bent. Her curls were damp ringlets against her scalp. “He is a real daddy,” she said, her voice almost inaudible. “He’s mine.”
    Grace nodded. “Yes, honey. He is.” The bullet now was burrowing, worming its way up toward her heart. It was one of those time-release ones, guaranteed to keep chewing up her insides for some time to come. She wondered what it would take to get rid of it.
    “All done.” She carried the conditioner into the bathroom, found what she was looking for and returned.
    Katie sat with her knees up, her face down, protecting herself.
    “Sunscreen.” Grace put it on the dresser. “Even if Daddy forgets. Don’t you forget.” The bottle was bright orange and had a cartoon of a fish on it.
    “Mommy.” Katie’s voice was muffled, forced. “Did you just forget?”
    “Forget.” Grace looked around the room, her eyes settling on the open suitcase, mentally reviewing the contents. It was a jumbled mess.
    “I think I packed everything.” She closed the lid and zipped it. “If I forgot something, bring it back with you, okay?”
    “No, silly, that I had a daddy.”
    Katie raised her eyes and looked at her. Her eyes were wide, dark brown, fathomless.
    Katie’s aim was much surer than Mac’s. It was a direct hit.
    Grace felt the aftershock first, the trembling as her body braced for a blow that had already come, and then she felt the pain coursing through her. It was hot, electric, a wire that stung with recriminations and truth.
    Grace had tried to leave Mac behind for good. What she hadn’t factored in was how much that decision would cost Katie.
    “Am I interrupting something?” Mac stood in the doorway, a hopeful look on his face, the parent at the fence, the one on the outside.
    There was a split second when Grace could have said something, fixed whatever it was between her and Katie, a single word and everything would have been okay, but in that blinding moment of time, Katie turned toward the sound of his voice. Grace had always reached out to Katie, instinctively, joyously, but now she stalled, free-falling, unable to move. She stared at Katie and for the first time felt the awkwardness of not reaching out, embracing her, and in that instant she lost her standing as a mother. Not with Katie, perhaps, but with herself.
    “He’s here. That’s what I came to tell you.”
    Katie turned to take a look out the window. Officer Epsten sat in an idling golf cart. Katie trotted for the door.
    Grace made a small sound.
    “Wait,” Mac said. “Give your mom a hug.”
    Katie came limply into her arms, her body angled away. Grace felt an elbow. Katie squirmed free, leaving behind the familiar scents of new mown-grass and