was a tall, quiet boy a few years younger than TamÃr. His brother, who was of an age with Baldus, stared at her wide-eyed throughout the meal, as if expecting her to change form again before his eyes.
Baldus staunchly carried out his duties here, too, until TamÃr coaxed him into sharing her bench, and made him eat a few morsels from her portion.
As soon as the meal was done servants cleared away the dishes and Illardi spread out charts of the harbor to assess the damage.
âThe Plenimarans knew their job. While the land forces attacked the shoreline, their sailors cast burning pitch on every vessel they could reach and cut the mooring lines. Iâm afraid all your warships are at the bottom of the harbor now, or burning on the far reach. Only a few smallcarracks escaped. Twenty-seven enemy vessels were captured.â
âAny word of how many ships escaped?â TamÃr asked.
âThe lookouts at Great Head claim no more than ten.â
âEnough to carry home word of their defeat,â Jorvai noted.
âEnough to carry word of Eroâs weakness, too,â Iya warned. âWe cannot afford to be taken by surprise again. I have several of my wizards watching the sea, but without knowing where to look, they may not find them. Tell the lookouts to be vigilant, especially in foul weather.â
I llardi and the others left at last. A large bathing tub had been carried in and filled as they dined and Ki eyed it enviously. Theyâd lived in the saddle for days.
âBaldus, go into the corridor and keep watch with the guards for a while,â said TamÃr. She flopped down on the bed and nodded toward the tub. âYou want first go?â
âNo, you go onâThat isââ A week ago Ki wouldnât have thought twice about it. Now he could feel his face going warm. âI should step outâshouldnât I?â
It seemed a logical enough conclusion, but TamÃr suddenly looked close to tears. âDo I disgust you that much?â
âWhat? No!â he exclaimed, astonished both by the sudden change of mood and that sheâd jump to such a harsh conclusion. âHow can you think that?â
She slumped forward with her face in her hands. âBecause thatâs how I feel. Ever since Atyion, Iâve felt like Iâm trapped in a bad dream and canât wake up. Nothing feels right! I have this empty feeling in my trousersââ Ki saw color rise in her cheeks, too. âAnd these?â She glared down at the hard little points under the dirty linen of her shirt. âThey ache like fire!â
Ki found himself looking anywhere but at her. âMy sisters said the same when they ripened. It passes as they grow.â
âGrow?â She looked horrified at the prospect. âBut you want to know the worst of it?â
She pulled the shirt off over her head, leaving herself naked from the waist up except for her parentsâ rings on a chain around her neck. Ki hastily averted his eyes again.
âThat. You canât even look at me can you? Every day since Atyion Iâve seen you flinch and turn away.â
âItâs not like that.â Ki faced her squarely. Heâd seen naked women enough growing up. She didnât look any different than one of his sisters, apart from the mottled bruise on her shoulder where sheâd been struck during the first attack on the city. It had faded to a green-and-yellow blotch, stippled at the center with the purpled imprint of the chain mail that had stopped the arrow. âItâsâDamn it, I canât explain it. Fact is, you donât look all that different than you did before.â
âLying doesnât help, Ki.â She hunched in on herself, arms crossed over her tiny breasts. âIllior is cruel. You wouldnât touch me when I was a boy and now that Iâm a girl, you canât even look at me.â She stood and stripped her breeches off, angrily